what a joke
Things are too repetitive right now. Same old bullshit day in day out. Equal proportions of flowing crap in every which direction.
Actually it’s not that bad, I’m just a bit tired of work. I’m still getting a lot of stuff done at work, I generally try to keep my personal crap out of the actual work that I do, so even if there’s something bothering me I can still be productive. Which is sort of scary in a way now that I think about it. I have always been a bit compulsive so I guess it’s not a big surprise…I also generally deal with the stupid crap on my own time, like now.
More than anything, I’m tired of petty bullshit. I seem to keep being singled out over petty bullshit and to be honest I’m having a lot of trouble taking any of it seriously. I keep thinking to myself, this has got to be a joke. I’ve been trying to basically just stay out of peoples way but some stupid shit seems to happen anyway.
I’m not there to make friends, heh not anymore anyway. At the same time, it shouldn’t be some kind of hostile environment. That seems to be what has occurred regardless. I think I’ve basically lost trust in the whole thing at this point. I know I’ve always been a little weird, but at this point, it’s gone pure overkill. If things were really as bad as some have made them out to be, I’d be having like severe social deficits all over the place and honestly, that’s really just not the case. I love how in an environment basically full of computer nerds with cocky attitudes, I’m somehow the cockiest one. Sorry, this is crap. I can’t help but feel that maybe this just isn’t the best environment for me. I’m starting to feel I need something I can take a bit more seriously.
All work and no play makes jack a dull boy. All work and no play makes jack a dull boy. All work and no play makes jack a dull boy.
Jack ain’t know shit.