I don’t have the time.
I don’t have the time to wait around for other people right now but I do anyway.
I’m not very dependable. I rarely get anything done unless I have some incentive and/or easy exposure to the task at hand. I can’t read peoples minds and they can’t read mine.
A friend said that someone who could read minds would be their biggest fear. For me it’d be something that makes everything a whole lot easier. If people could read my mind I wouldn’t have all this bullshit over misunderstandings all the time.
Well actually it’s just one person really and I’m sure you know who you are. I’m tired of assumptions. I can’t continue a friendship in which nothing is made clear. I can’t continue a friendship with no trust. I can’t continue a friendship in which I’m misunderstood and lashed out against.
It’s not all my fault, that’s too easy. If everything was my fault I could just rely on that as a defense against people saying it’s my fault. If everything is my fault it’d just cancel out or something. That’d be kind of neat actually. If everything I said is wrong I could just keep saying things until the only things left were the things that are right, which I’d be unable to say.
It’s kind of like how I only say the things I don’t like most of the time which then leaves the things I do like remaining. I’m tired of all this confusion. I have too much going on already to worry about this crap. I have to be up in 8 hours or so to start moving to my grandparents house. I’m going to end up getting no sleep at all if I keep this up. I can’t wait forever for other people. At the same time, they were thinking the same thing about me.
More misunderstandings yet again. I’m tired.
I’m still waiting.