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July 25, 2004

Communist revolution.

Filed under: General — Xero @ 3:19 am

Come one come all. It’s time.

Communist revolution!

Yes. It is time. Bush or Kerry or Che Guevara?

DEAD MEN CAN’T BE PRESIDENT. Vote for me. I’ll fix things. I’m pro-choice! I like guns. No school vouchers! No school anything. No school taxes either, pay for your own damn schools, bastards. No you damn Miami-ians, I’m lifting the embargo on Cuba, get over it.

And black people, you’re no longer hated, it’s the Arabs now, stfu about equal opportunity.

Crime is your fault, I can’t do shit about it other then try and force people to change. Get over yourselves paranoid control freaks.

Also, drugs are legalized, end of story, I don’t care.

Socialized medical? COMMUNISED MEDICAL!

Bye copyright. Bye monopolies.

Population control. More than 2 kids and we post-natal abort them and make you watch. Fuck off Christian hippies.

Also, you’re not independent, get over it. All SUV’s not being used for off-road or cargo transport are now renamed to CTV’s for “Child Transport Vehicle” and are taxed for you being so stupid. Mini-vans are banned, especially pt cruisers.

Porn will be broadcast on public television at 5 in the afternoon. Shut the hell up.

The word fuck will be printed on large posters with pictures of young children smoking cigarettes with Barney.

All those trying to censor thought will be punished with the amount of censorship they were trying to enforce with something they enjoy. Take that.

Also, I hate you, no sucking up.

July 22, 2004

I’m eviler than you are.

Filed under: General — Xero @ 3:25 pm



Let’s just say that since today I’m eviler than you are,
My human torture chamber is of enormous proportions,
In my spare time I perform back-alley abortions,
I don’t care about your silly opinion,
about moral values and government dominion,
When I look out the window, and see your kids there,
I give them cigarettes and teach them to swear,
And you might say that I’m a bad person,
but I’m just providing genetic dispersion,
A service well needed in this world of delusion,
It’s no wonder you’re in my room of contusion.


Is that even a word?

Who cares. I secretly hate you.

July 18, 2004

Sometimes, I rule (All the time.)

Filed under: General — Xero @ 12:43 am

So, here’s some recently encountered bullshit:

“I don’t mean to be disrespectful but your parents were selfish and it would have been better if you never were born.”

And some random pessimism as well:

“Why do that? You’ll only be able to use that until you move out.”

As if I’m moving out anytime soon… It doesn’t look like it.

Also things like:
“What grade would you be in? Twelfth? Well why don’t you go back to school for a year and finish?”

As if I’d suddenly meet the requirements for 12th grade (lacking all the force fed memorizations from past years built up would most likely make me fail math badly, on top of lacking required credits I’m sure.)

And things like this:
“No one will hire you for your skills, you need to have an education”

Yeah, well I know not having a piece of paper saying I’ve passed your flawed social structure has made things slightly harder for me, do you think I’m that stupid? Anyways 99.9% of the rich did not get there from hard work or education, they got there from being in the right place at the right time. Pure chance. I don’t need to hear pessimism from people who think they understand the world, who think they know it all, for whatever reason, age, self-proclaimed wisdom, past experience, or what not.

Of course when I question what they say, or when I just plain out say no, you’re wrong, then all of a sudden I’m the know it all. Shit, I’m already the know it all just from writing this, am I not? In their eyes maybe, but I never claim to know the way, I just know what I’m not doing. If I did get a job they’d all shut up pretty quickly because they’d no longer be able to make silly claims like that so now I’ve got something I can use in spite. Maybe it’ll be just the motivation I need. Maybe not.

I have noticed that I’ve basically been raised to be lazy. Then again so has most current teenage culture from what I’ve seen. It seems that parents are too overprotective in all the wrong areas. All people care about is censoring their kids from violence and naughty words. So now their kids listen to prepackaged pop-music and get further thrown away from the reality which censorship has already blinded them from.

And of course parents are too lenient in all the wrong areas. Kids get away with stupidity. Of course if you get all A’s you’re mommies little honor student and so all must be well. Go work a desk job sucking some thirty-five-year-old-dropout’s dick who just so happens to own the company because it was passed down to them by their parents.

And then you say I’m supposed to give a shit. Fuck that.

You know right now there’s a lot of people trying to put pressure on me. Of course in reality I don’t have much so I ignore the pressure they’re trying to put on me since they’re full of shit and make my own. That hasn’t worked out to well either of course. Their pressure is all about the future. When I turn 18 suddenly no more social security checks, suddenly I’m not covered by my moms insurance, and of course all the other things involved with being 18.

Speaking of my mom she’s basically gone off the deep end. Blinded by her own emotions and impulses she’s become impatient and seems to suffer from some sort of hyper-anxiety. Being hyper appears to make time slow down, it only figures. She competes with my sisters immaturity and imitates her in many ways which leads to random screaming bouts between the two. It’s kind of funny, and sad, at the same time. The only difference is that my sister is lazy and my mom is lazy yet forced to work. Of course this means my mom suddenly knows about working in the real world and motivation. Not.

As for immaturity, I think most people are really bad judges of it. It seems by most peoples standards around here maturity just means you do whatever they want and don’t question it. It’s funny because they all talk behind each others backs like a bunch of teenage school girls. Oh, am I judging someones maturity? Am I talking behind their backs? Sorry about that.

So in the end what’s it about? Money. They say money doesn’t make you happy, and I hear that so much around here. Funny because no one around here seems happy. With all the complaining and fighting going on it seems like everyone’s quite angry. And I’d think that equates to sad in the long run.

Plus happiness is always temporary. No one is living in a bliss of happiness, sorry. You can only be so ignorant to a point, you know? You could take me as a cynic, and you’d be right. You could take me as a pessimist and you’d be wrong again. Pessimism with a side of optimism. I can’t be like all the pessimists around here, all they try to do is bring me down, even if they don’t realize it.

And what’s with parenting advice from people who’s children are currently not doing so well later in life? And what’s with parenting advice from people who don’t have kids? And what’s with parenting advice anyway? Let’s just abandon our babies on the top of mountains. Whatever one makes it, they’ll be the next king. Either that or an NFL player, who knows.

Everyones got their own little way of life and as long as I’m not making my own money I’m expected to obey by another’s rules. You know, these people are pretty damn lucky I’m not self-dependent at the moment because if I was they’d probably never see me again. They say they care, so I’d assume that’d make them pretty upset. I’d think about all the things they were probably saying about me behind my back and laugh. I have no intention to talk to people who are just going to bring me down. Plus being social was never my thing.

You know, sometimes I’m too evil for my own good (saying things that would disadvantage me.) I kind of like it. You know why? I see through the cloud of bullshit, and through it, you wouldn’t believe, was more shit. The bullshit people force themselves to believe is all to hide the truth, which is shitty to begin with.

Accept it, everyone’s wrong in the long run. There is no right. If right is to survive using whatever method then right is relative. Survival is of course, a selfish desire. I’m starting to think most Americans are on the bad side of natural selection.

July 13, 2004

waste time

Filed under: General — Xero @ 4:51 am

I’m tired of life at the moment. Everything seems to suck and all I ever do is worry about dying. When I think about it I really don’t have anything to live for anymore. The only thing that I have to live for is making money and buying things. Even that isn’t satisfying. I guess you could say I’ve failed capitalism.

My fortune just was:
Don’t despair; your ideal lover is waiting for you around the corner.

Which is really fucked up because I was just thinking about something like that, my previous post kind of reminded me of the whole human reproduction thing and I started getting somewhat annoyed by the whole thing. Yeah that’d be easy, find some girl and have kids and have my only reason to live to be to extend the gene line. That’s stupid.

Maybe I’m overly simplifying things but I don’t really care because all the in between shit is just that, shit. All this stupid ass chemical reaction bullshit is pissing me off. It’d have been so much easier if instead of being human I was a cat, so I could sleep all day and then randomly go crazy and then go back to normal as soon as it seemed all hope is lost. That’d be pretty cool.

This is a waste of space. Really, it is. In fact I hate everyone. It’s true. Everyone always thinks I keep things bottled up well now they’re right. I secretly hate you.

July 12, 2004

Yeah. What the hell.

Filed under: General — Xero @ 9:24 pm

You know more than ever I’m tired of bullshit.

While not at the computer I receive a message from an ex saying they still like me. I have a strong suspicion they’re just full of shit or trying to make someone jealous. I didn’t see the message until about 50 minutes later where I respond saying “haha really?” Of course by this point they have an away message on talking about not being able to see through a cloud of egos.

What the fuck. Who do these people take me for? I’m not going easy on anyone just because they’re a girl, fuck that. I’m tired of peoples bullshit. I’m not going to play a game or buy into fucked up left-over emotions. How the fuck can someone I’ve talked to briefly one time in the past year or so validly like me still? Do they even know me?

Of course not, it’s a big fucking joke and I’m the victim, or so it’d seem from a paranoid perspective. It could be a jealousy thing, considering their online photo album is full of pictures of them making out with some guy. Maybe trying to make me or that guy jealous? I really couldn’t give a shit anymore because of my choice to disassociate with human reproduction games.

What kind of insecure fuck-tard would try to make some guy they dated years past jealous who they haven’t even talked to in ages? I mean damn. That’s fucked up. Unless of course they were serious with what they said, and had no hidden motives. I doubt that. Maybe they’re just fucking with me, who knows. What I do know is that people are fucked up, and I’m no better in many aspects.

Even though I’ve gotten trapped up in this health anxiety thing I still can smell bullshit when it’s laying around. And I smell it. Should I even waste the time to question their motives, or just assume stupidity right now and fuck it? Which wastes less time? Do I need to waste time? Do I gain or lose something? Think like an animal.

You know I kind of liked how I was before this health anxiety shit. I was pretty damn kick-ass. This stuff brings me down, I feel like a weakling. That’s not how I normally am. Oh fuck that I still rule. You all suck. Take that, ego cloud.

July 3, 2004


Filed under: General — Xero @ 3:20 am

You want to know what I think? The only reason family members care for one another is because they’re the continuation of the family gene line. Fuck that.

So in the mean time while I’m living around a bunch of fools, I might as well take advantage of it. My family pisses me off. Extended family that is. They’re so quick to talk behind everyones back and judge people for difference in opinion that it’s not even funny. It disgusts me. It’s like racism against ideas or something.

So in the mean time no one has any solution on what to do. Of course money is the big limiter as always. What else is new. Money money money. Stupid ass territory games.

So everyone is doing these silly ass tasks to make money to live and survive and for what? So you can die in the end. Of course while you’re doing it all you’ll fool yourself into believing that you’re invincible and will end up in some utopia. Yeah right, selfish pricks.

Prepackaged bullshit, that’s what life comes with. Your family is what decides which package you get. Men and women get different packages. So everyones raised to be the perfect human, as of course your parents see fit. They’ll blind you from the real world at first, then slowly introduce you.

Well my parents never really tried blinding me from the world, that doesn’t mean they told me anything themselves though. Just no censoring. Did it benefit in the end? Yeah, but at the same time it pisses off people who see differently.

And why is that? Because they were raised with a different package of bullshit. So if you’re poor, you get the poor package, rich and you get the rich package. Guess what? You all suck.

I’m tired of hearing this stupid ass crap about etiquette, morals, and manners. When I hear those words I do not think “good thing” like some seem to. I hear self-limitation without justification. The only justification is that “it’s the right thing to do.” Of course this is coming from the mouths of people who have no clue about what right and wrong means and how relative it is. Their old beliefs are dug in so deep it’s like trying to dig to the center of the earth to get them out.

Old fashioned. It seems to happen in every generation too. It’s not a new thing, it happened with our parents and their parents as well. Why is this? Is it some kind of method to ensure that the new are the only ones to prosper? Or is it that some people have just learned to accept it right in the ass and not to question?

I guess I will find out if I live that long, who knows. I think if I was made world leader I’d probably end up destroying the world and ending all progress because of how pointless I think it all is. I still have no justifications for existence, and when I see how close minded and self-limiting most people are it goes to show how pathetic the human race really is.

Look at them all, 6 billion of them, tiny ants. Squashing each other. Yeah, too bad for you fools that there is no god, no savior, no hope, no fate, no destiny, no reincarnation, no life after death. You’re all going down. False hope got us this far, how much further will you let it take us?

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